May Day first entry.

Alright..
Today is my official day of writing my blog
after changing the location, and the skin, n did the necessary stuff..

so many things have happened.
and I'm still digesting it.
Lets see...

I've broke up with my boyfriend
cos the he couldnt provide enough security for me.
probably I handle things harsher and more realistic than him
hence found out that he's really not for me

then I changed religion
I've never happy with being a Buddhist
but I nvr really know how to be a Christian
stuck in the middle? yea, probably.
But I'm now back on track
going to be more serious after forsaking God and left Him twice.
He's so gracious enough to keep asking me to come back
and I'm grateful for that.

I've gotten a new lover.
He's too old to be my boyfriend (actually almost 3 yrs older.)
boyfriend are for guys who're still finding what they want, and what they can do with their girlfriend.
This guy's abit different.
cos I've never really dated anyone this mature
and I realised,
Thomas is older than Edwin
Alan is older than Thomas
my current lover, Joshua, is older than Alan.
I guess my fear for dating for older guys are gone (they used to spell B-O-R-I-N-G to me)
guess I've reached a stage of stability

Yea, and I'm in deep deep debt.
which is split within 3 ppl (my ex, my sis and myself)
well, not so bad
at least I have 2 other ppl helping me pay
I'm trying to clear within 1 year
so that I can go on saving mode
I aim to save $12k/annum..
if I stay at my current company,
I may save more.
I'm optimistic about this.
I'm just worried for my debtors.

My family like totally outcast me because of my old-cum-new belief
which is ok
I would still continue to pray for them
and I would love to have them accept it, which could be too much for them to take
unfortunately, my family sees it as a link with my current lover
which is not true
I've been trying not to hold joss stick since secondary school
I gave in cos I wasnt a devoted Christian.
now that I've decided to take the catechism class
I think it should be rightful not to hold it at all

I have lots to tell..
but now is not the time..
this entry will be a summary of what I would like to share in my next few entries.
although I think nobody will read la.
lol..
cos I disabled the search engine function.

Anyway, have a good night slp..
tml going for kway chap breakfast session
enjoy ur day.

bye`